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UPDATE: THANK YOU FOR ANSWERING I WAS HAMSTERING LIKE CRAZY AND NEEDED A LITTLE PUSH FROM YOU GUYS. BROKE UP WITH HER AND GOING NO CONTACT FOR REAL THIS TIME.

TLDR: oneitis for this girl; very good relation ship; she lies to my face more than once; dumped her; took her back, not sure if I fucked up or not

Hello guys! Ive been lurking for a few months, read the sidebar and everything but fuck man I need your honest advice. Deep down I think I know the damn answer and i'm simply hamstering it away but these days have been hell to me so I cant fucking think straight anymore.

Now on the topic. So ive been having an ltr for 1.5 years with an HB8 in my eyes. We're both in our early 20s and we get along pretty well. She's my first ltr (I think thats why im hamstering so much) Same interests and passion (both musicians), have projects together and everything. She's submissive, comes from a moral and religious household, doesnt like to party and doesnt have many friends, so usually she is a bit clingy on me, we dont live together but when im with her she never refuses sex (although she rarely iniciates it) and i always have the last word in any fight/topic about our relationship.

I had some red flags with her (once she lied straight to my face about being texting a guy, I confronted her, she finally admitted and I told her next time she lied I'd be out of the relationship) and I think she likes to keep ex's orbitting her which is a big fucking no to me.

Once in her birthday I went to make her a surprise and stopped by her house unnanounced and caught her exiting her fucking ex's car with a birthday gift in her hand. She then proceeds to tell me i'm being paranoid because they've been friends since forever (she dated him 8 years ago). Strike 2. Beta me should have dumped her right there. Instead i started to become controlling and jealous.

Anyway last few months ive been working out like crazy and shedding some fat, trying to improve frame & mentality and started to see some improvements in her (much more interactive in sex, more feminine and submissive, random gifts, random bjs) but I fucking started with that gut feeling man... I couldnt put my finger on it but it was there like a big turd I wanted desperatly to shit out. She wouldnt text me back for 4 hours although she told me she was at home. So for the first time in my life (i feel embarassed), I put on my shades, my detective hat, my friend picks me up in his car which she'd never seen and we proceed to hide in her street waiting for her. All lights off so she's clearly not home. We wait around 30 minutes and guess what? I hear a loud engine roar coming straight from her madafaka ex-boyfriend's super duper hot car. I swear the car was hotter than her. Anyway, she fuckin hops out in her fancy skirt, I hide, she spots my friend (lets call him S) but she seems unsure if its him and starts running to her door (lol).

She then textes me asking me where I am, I say "i'm chilling with a friend, you?" She tells me she'd been out with her parents and asks if I'm with S. I say "nah but i heard he is in a bar right next to your house :)" just to install some panic on that bitch.

Anyway since she flat out lied to me about hanging with the ex I ended up dumping her by text "I know what you've done, dont ever contact me again", and block her in everything (socials, phone numbers etc).

Next morning she's ringing my doorbell crying and saying she doesnt know why i'm dumping her. I tell her I saw her hopping out of the car, she denies and put a show that should win her a fucking oscar. I swear to you, it was so good I even started doubting my eyesight. I continue to tell her it was her and after some minutes she breaksdown admitting it was her. Her hamster proceeds to say she was 'just helping her ex because he wanted to bang a girl and she was acting as her wing' lol wtf. She begs and begs and begs, says she never cheated on me, saying that she understands what this looks like but its not, saying she'll give me 24/7 access to her phone, show all her texts with the ex, socials, and take a picture everywhere she goes so I can start trusting her again and blablayadayada.

I kick her out and she stays at my door for 8 fucking hours pleading for me to come out, next day she texts all my friends saying im the love of her life and she never cheated, she was really just helping him but lied because knew Id get upset and she cant live without me blablaa.

Next day her friends start calling me saying she doesnt eat nor sleep, shes really depressed, she swears she was faithful, i should give her another chance and blablablabla.

Anyway fast forward one week and i fuck shit up real hard.

I took her back.

She showed me all her conversations with the ex and theres nothing there ((few convos from february, then again in may)). Pretty sure she didnt delete the other parts because I restored the data from her whatsapp backup.

She is clingy as hell now and treats me like a king but still she lied and i cant get over it, I dont think she fucked him because she dated this dude when she was 16 (told me she lost her virginity only at 21, with other boyfriend) and dumped him 2 times because according to her he was her puppy and never put her in her place. They remained friends since then.

The thing is she never wanted me to meet him nor any of her other male friends (which are all part of a group she recently hung out with). I told her she should have introduced me to her friends by now but she never did. This is fucking suspicious.

Fuck the feels man i wish I was a sociopath. Im getting conscious about even banging other chicks...

Sorry for the long post.