Since when I found trp my lifestyle and overall behavior has changed dramatically. I became more egotistical and...apathetic? I don't feel the need to socialize, to have friends or do whatever everyone is doing. I reached the point where my life is (probably) more interesting than talking with people about boring and mundane stuff such as sports, tv series and topics which distance yourself from your goals. I know I sound arrogant, but honestly that's how I view it. After reading trp and philosophy for like 7 months, most of the people around me seem close-minded. Thus my old "friends" as well. They started hating me since when I started thinking about myself. When I'm around unsuccesfull people I become conscious and ask myself "Why am I here wasting time with this people? What the fuck am I doing with my life?"

If I had to define my behavior in some simple adjectives, I would say: apathetic, arrogant (in the meaning that I feel superior but I demonstrate it unconsciously with body language and not words. It still seems to make people around me uncomfortable and unfriendly but I don't do it on purpose to be honest), outcast and cynic. This seems to attract women, but on the other hand I seem to remove myself from the social life. In this moment I don't feel the need to socialize with anyone tho to be honest. I'm 18 and I love being alone and in monk mode. It feels great to accomplish things almost nobody can accomplish or people who don't even try to become the best version of themselves.

What do you think about my situation? Should I really care about making friends and being accepted in social circles at my age? I honestly feel like my only goal should be improving myself and nothing else really matters