Okay, I’m going to base this off the fact that I 1) quickly skimmed through your post and 2) someone just idiotically recommended you to watch “Scarface”. Sir, you have infinite value as a human being. Don’t let anybody tell you you don’t. Second, EDIT: scrolling back up to finish reading your post—you have to take care of yourself. Stop looking for validation from other people and recognize that you are a luminous fucking being, not some crude matter.

I’m serious. What you don’t see in yourself reflects outward, and someone who doesn’t recognize their own value will not be reciprocated upon, ESPECIALLY in college. Listen, do yourself a favor and take a deep breath. In through your nose, out through your mouth.

You’re going to be okay.

One thing I will say is, don’t let TRP tell you what to do, there’s a lot of fake alphas and egoistic lifters on these threads that tout “mEn’S rIgHts, MeN’s RiGhTs!” As men we have the ultimate freedom to do and be whatever we want, and we have the tools to do it. But people just complain, don’t become one of those. Humility and gratitude go a long way my friend, and before you start to complain that nobody is recognizing your value as a human being, maybe you should take a look in the mirror and see why you went to drugs in the first place for a sense of self-worth.

I’ve been there, man. Mental health is still largely misunderstood in the US, I don’t know where you’re from, but most people don’t understand it. Take yourself aside and become your own best friend, learn to listen to your conscience. Oh yeah, and stay in school, get that degree, and make it fucking rain. If you ever need someone to talk to you, my doors are open. Peace

EDIT 2: I would also like to add that you need to surround yourself with people you can trust. Family, friends, your school counselors, anyone. Find who has your best interest in mind and bounce ideas off of them, that’s what they’re there for. Don’t listen to this lone wolf nonsense, “Every man for himself!” No. If the world worked that way we’d all be dead, human beings are social creatures. Focus on two things: who you are, and what you want to do. Then you’ll know where you’re headed, and people will follow. And yes, that includes the women, but also focus less on getting attention and prioritize “paying” attention, you’ll cover A LOT more ground that way. Start with “Meditations” by Marcus Aurelius, there’s some indispensable insights there