I probably don't have a whole lot of room to talk on this forum, but I've definitely earned my stripes out there in the real world.
I've tried to save strippers, suicidal girls, watched my own high school sweetheart get pumped and dumped by Chad not once, but twice (baby daddies and all, and yeah, we talked about having kids one day), had to pay hookers just to feel normal. Just to feel like there's not something horribly fucking wrong with me.
I've fallen truly and deeply in love with women who couldn't be faithful. I cared about them...wanted better for them. Protected them. Provided for them. This forum does a pretty good job killing the blue pill but honestly it dresses shit up and tries to find a happy median too often.
Women will never be faithful forever. I don't care how tight your game is. They CAN'T. Don't expect it and you won't get burned.
All that marriage, house, kids, long term relationship goals, the fairy tale ending?? It's HER job to worry about that shit.
Your job as a man is to build and enjoy your life and to fuck her. That's all.
Stop putting your heart out there, foreal. You don't have anything if you aren't fucking, there's nothing to talk about or waste your time thinking about. So care about fucking her first (and only) and let these little girls worry about all that other shit.
TL:DR Stop building castles in the sky. We get it, you're a good guy and you want a family one day. Stop holding onto that mushy shit and do your goddamn job. Stop torturing yourself, just fuck her or don't.