Not too much to say about the cheating. My ex was preparing for branch swinging and I caught her by sneaking her cellphone. That was devastating and it is still painful since she chases me asking for being forgiven.

The thing is that it has affected other aspects of my life like my music classes and my job as a programmer. So my boss told me that I had to arrive everyday 15 minutes before the job starts in order to measure my compromise because my performance went down.

I was doing this very great but last Friday the mother of my ex asked me to talk to me because she wanted to talk about the situation, since I just hard nexted my ex.

So I accepted (a huge mistake) to talk to her in order to reinforce my decision to end the relationship once for all. I said this, that it was the end, etc. But she tried to sell me the "my daughter is so regretful and is too sad and is suffering too much and she learned the lesson" thing while she was showing me photos of her from her cellphone. She gave me her cellphone to see a photo closely and I started to see the other photos of the gallery and I found some photos of my ex with the guy she was preparing for branch swinging. I told her about the photo and she said to me "I can't believe you saw more that I have showed you", "that was very bad", "how could you think that I could come and say to you to forgive my daughter while being hypocrite saying I didn't know everything", she denied everything and she shit-tested me and tried to make me feel guilty because "not even her siblings had done what I have done (sneaking into her cellphone)" but instead of that the whole reality hit me hard.

This was a fucking shock and a trauma. The mother who was after me to forgive her bad and idiot-for-having-cheated-on-me daughter said all the time that she couldn't recognise her daughter, she didn't know anything and she was shocked too.

Now more than ever I know that AWALT, even the mother was conspiring against me in order to be caught as a fucking beta provider forever.

The trauma affected me today and I arrived 8 minutes later so my boss made me an ultimatum. I have to make a proposal in order to let him recognise my compromise but I can't imagine how. If my proposal doesn't convince him it is over forever and I love this job too much.

What kind of things could I propose? I've been thinking in reading books and give him my writings and learning as a way of letting him know that I'm improving as a human being, building habits and avoiding bad behaviours, etc. But I feel this is no way enough.

I need your help with this guys. Thank you very much.