18 years old, freshly moved out, raised my entire life in one of the strictest western religions there is. The name that just popped into your head is probably it. Sex before marriage results in banishment where my friends and family can’t talk to me. Obviously I have been throwing this rule to the wind since I moved out, however I have still been playing the part to my parents and most of my friends.

Yesterday I was the mall with a whole bunch of hickies on my neck when a 20 person mix of teens and adults from my church ran into me. I was wearing a T-shirt so there wasn’t much I could do to hide them. Great.

Now I just got a call that they want to speak to me after the service today. Great. I’m afraid of them because of how I was raised and I don’t want to lose my family or my best friends I’ve grown up with. I feel like throwing up.