I lift, have a pretty decent job, do yoga, great musician (don't give a shit about that for years now tho), am able to make friends sometimes.

In a lot better of a place than a year ago thanks to being a selfish cunt but I have loads of fucking anger towards myself and my inadequacies, mainly women.

Spent my life so far being depressed (29 now) but now I want to push that anger outwards and either use it to achieve something new or ruin something/someone instead of hurting myself.

I have no goals other than get a handful of lays one day.

What should I focus on that will bring me some fulfilment?