So I met a girl not too long ago on a family cruise, she’s a friend of a friend of my sister. Before you mention don’t shit where you eat I honestly didn’t like the girl when I met her. She was clingy and outgoing and well, opposites attract but anyways we eventually grew pretty close over the week away and when we all got back home we were secretly holding hands and touching one another.

One night I invited her to my room after we got back. She was sleeping the guest bedroom so I know if I went in there it she rejected my advances my family would find out so I simply texted her to come into my room and she did. She said we can’t have sex so I figured that meant “do whatever you want with me, I’m your slave tonight” I thought fucking hell this is gonna be easy. I didn’t have any condoms and know she was a Virgin I didn’t feel like taking her virginity so I let her go to town on my dick for 30 minutes and told her good job and sent her off to bed. This went on for about a week or two.

I realized at night we were getting way to close with each other. During the day time we were regular people and acted like we hardly knew each other. So after dark when everyone went to bed she slipped in my bed at night. After she finally went home I started to get the “what are we texts” and she asked me if she was sexually active. I said she isn’t having sex with me and tried to leave the message as grey as possible to keep her coming back without anyone finding out. But she kept pushing for commitment. Me being 23 and her only 18 I didn’t want a relationship and tried to say wait until after we graduate college to get sexual if that’s what you want but I know she wanted me to stop hiding our relationship so eventually she broke and said were never going to be together.

And I’ve had Oneitus for her ever since. I want be able to get back on the horse but when ever I see a girl I just feel fucking awful about fucking them like the last girl and leaving em. Just feels bad man.