I usually don't ask stupid questions from people on the internet, but I don't know how long till I crack.
Here's the short version: I'm 30 year old, I live in Romania and I never had a girlfriend (I fucked up I know). About 2 and a half years ago I started getting my shit together: got a job, i worked 6 days a week (10,12 hours a day), i started saving up, learned a new language, went to a therapist (i got depressed in the mean time), started running, started going to the gym, started college again (didn't finish the first time around), and I approached more girls in this period then in the previous years (and i did some other small things).
It might not seem like it, but i tried really hard to fix my life and despite all this I feel horrible, my depression is coming back again and my goals (moving out and getting a girlfriend) seem further away now, then when I started.
I hate being at work (I liked it a lot in the beginning), I don't like the job anymore, I don't like the environment, I have a HUGE oneitis for a coworker and their are also other girls there, who rejected me and it hurts seeing them so fucking much. It will take about a month or two before I can find a better job (I have a plan), but I'm afraid I'm might crack in the meantime. I barely made it through the day.
I also have problems at home I don't get along with my parents, at all, they have good intentions, but they really suck. I hate being at home with them. I know I shouldn't be staying with my parents and this age, but I can't afford my own place right now.(and it's pretty common here)
Probably nobody can give me an advice that i haven't heard/red before, but I just had to try, thanks for reading, anyway.
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