Hi, I need some help/advice.

Background - 22yo, addicted to pornography, virgin and no friend no gf, total loser.

I have a big problem that's holding me
- Since I was 8-9 I use transsexual porn and I dressed in women's clothes.
- The cycle since then is this: stress/bored-> dress up -> Porn and Fantasie Trans -> masturbation -> shame and regret.
- I'm starting to question my sexuality (maybe it's transgender) but I think I'm really being induced by pornography, I do not know exactly.

  • So, how to abandon habits, how to deal with the shame of fetish and fantasies?
    (feminisation, dress up like girl, make up - crossdresser)
    I feel very bad about it after cum, but the desire returns and the cycle begins again.

I'm watching the time go by and so far, at 22 I did not do anything at all.
Please give me help.