Just recovered from monk-mode and had my first date. She contacted me on a site similar to Tinder, switched to Whatsapp very fast and it became obvious very early that she is dtf.

She isn't the best shot, pretty face, but a little bit chubby, but hey, you need to start somewhere I guess. I'd rate her a six who could easily become an eight if she lost some weight. She is also insecure about it.

So I went to her flat tonight for the first date and things went pretty well. Held frame, she gave me one of the best blowjobs I ever had and she was very caring for my comfort overall.

Due to my long absence I wasn't able to switch off my head though. I returned the favour and ate and fingered her like a pro, but I wasn't able to get my buddy beyond half stiff. I tried to not care and fucked her for a decent five minutes like there is no tomorrow and from her screaming and cheering me I'd say it was more than OK and her legs were all shaky afterwards.

I couldn't keep it up though and we ended it without me finishing. I think I also managed to overcome the awkwardness relatively good. Didn't apologize, tried to stay fuzzy about why it happened and used very light A&A when she asked multiple times if it was her, without being cocky.

We talked about setting up a new date, even appointed it for Sunday and I'd really like it to happen since it was pretty unsatisfying as you can imagine and I definetly need to get my load anywhere else than in my hand.

I just took a cab home and refrained from the urge to text her something like "Got home save". BP-me has been very annoying about it though.

She seems to be very much into me nonetheless, but as you might also guess I feel a little bit insecure now.

How do I proceed from here? How do I react if this happens again anytime with any girl?

Edit: I've got the feeling that this isn't too bad. I had this happen before now and then, mostly because of whisky-dick, and I normally saw the girls again afterwards. Scarcity is a hell of a bitch...

Edit:

I just texted a little bit back and forth with her. She ended up writing me how much she is attracted and that she never thought she could be so turned on and so wet and so on and she can't wait for me to come around the next time.

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