WARNING .. long story ahead! Question at the bottom.

The event that sparked this question happened over two weeks to this day.

One day, I was sitting with a friend in the university, when I saw this girl eye fucking me from the other end of the room. I did not give her much attention but my friend saw her too and kept telling me to. That they went on. Next morning here she is again. Same shit happens, except that I am now more invested in the eye contact. Nothing happened that day.

A week ago, I saw her with a female friend of mine. I thought to myself it could be a good opportunity to meet her. I chickened out. The day after, I am with my friend, I see her standing with that same girl. Now I have my buddy with me, he pumps me up and we sarge both of them. It was a little bit awkward. I didn't talk to her much.

Today, I was really into it after reading a post on TRP yesterday. I was sitting with a classmate chilling in the sun, she is with her friend behind us. The guy had a meeting with his supervisor. He went to see her. I was left alone.

Something here clicked in my head. I AM A FUCKING MAN. I turned around in my chair looked at her and waved my hand, she looks back and I tell her to come over to sit with me, she declined and said she cannot because she is with her friends, I crack a quick joke and walk up to then. I sat like I belonged there. This where it gets really awkward for a few seconds. I do not know anyone except her and they were all girls. I relaxed and made small talk with them. A few moments they quickly split. We are alone.

She seemed comfortable while talking. I let her do most of the talking. The topics varied between books, politics and Hitler lol. I was surprised that an HB 7 can handle that type of conversation. In my head I was like : "hmm".

Now I come to the question. We had the chemistry. I complimented her about her hair while touching it. She got shy and giggly. The problem is that I couldn't escalate beyond that.

I am thinking that I have emotional baggage and I can't express myself sexually with girls I am attracted to. Note that I was grabbing a girl's ass an hour ago, but that was just ''fun''.

Why can't I escalate ?