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lve grown up being mostly antisocial and a loner and I used to jsut play games all day everyday which I think was to cope with being bullied and going through family shit and I think I used games kinda as an escape and since I ran away and missed a lot of these situations that are normal and supposed to teach you how to grow I’m kinda behind everyone else’s by a few years, although the past few years I have made a lot of improvement. I started no fap and I’ve started meditation somewhat and it’s helped but I have these patterns engrained in my brain that are very pathetic like worrying about what girls think of me and always being in my head during social settings not really knowing how to flirt ETC I have to find a way to get rid of these old thoughts but at the same time learn how to do a lot of RP things. I read about adhd and having oneitis and having fear of rejection disorder and I feel like that describes me. I know I went on a rant but I just want some advice. I believe all these problems I have are from my environment so I believe I can change