So ever since swallowing the pill, I've been lifting religiously, increasing focus on my schoolwork, and I'm seeing results. Everyone sees that I've gotten huge, and people are beginning to notice that I'm the top student in the class. I currently have a job, and am going to college for free in NYC on full scholarship. This isn't to brag, it's to state that I should at least feel some level of self-confidence but for some reason I just don't. I'm so fucking dissatisfied.

I've "emancipated" myself recently for increased aid (manipulation of the system. I still live with my mom), and could be able to go to school in Florida on potentially full scholarship as well. I get excited about this, but deep down I know its for the weather and hoes.

If I keep with my NYC life right now for the next few years i could potentially accrue a lot of money. It would help a lot considering I am most likely going to medical school, but I'm just so unhappy here and I'm not fully sure why.