After a long few years of genuinely thinking about sexuality (and more years of ignoring it), I can say for sure that I am just simply not straight. I have sex with women and I'm definitely not gay, but there's an attraction to guys there. And I was too scared to admit it for a long time; I grew up pretty homophobic and in many ways I still am.
I'm young, 17, grew up in a somewhat homophobic environment and I have such feelings of shame over this issue, and really just don't know how to get over it; I can't stand the LGBT community, nor most gay men, and most people wouldn't peg me out to be one. I don't plan on telling people I meet, as I feel women would lose respect over it, but at the same time I can barely respect myself because of these feelings...
I genuinely feel alone on this issue, and although that often comforts me, I have no idea where to go from here.
Thanks to everyone on this sub who puts work into helping others