An awkward, 17 year-old me discovering TRP after countless failures and rejections was a godsend that finally made me figure out what I was doing wrong, and allowed me to fix these issues and finally get laid, get friends etc. Without this, I'd probably still be rejected and just saying "oh it's OK, someone who deserves me will come along".

I learned game from this place and, by adopting a new lifestyle, lifting and fixing my diet, I picked on it quickly and soon fixed being the socially awkward kid. Years of bottled-up anger and frustration from being the object of ridicule in every school I attended helped fuel my confidence, and gave me the necessary boldness to approach, go out, make new friends etc. I eventually moved back to the U.S. after years abroad, and with the "new me", I did a lot better than I could've ever hoped for. Heck, I'd even tell my domineering sister to shut the fuck and quit bossing me around and it actually worked.

However, a year later, although I still frequent this sub, lift and eat as healthy as I can, I feel as if I'm slipping down a slope back into BP land. I'm noticing that every day I become a little less confident, a little less good with game, a little more awkward. I don't have the temerity I used to have, and have begun to feel self aware more often. Sometimes I feel very uncomfortable at school and the nervousness is noticeable in my body language. Sometimes I might stutter and have a jarring cringey moment, and this is beginning to feel familiar. I do NOT want to go back to being a chump, but I feel as if any day I could slip over the edge...

What am I doing wrong? How do I revert this negative change?