Found RP March 2018 while searching for "why wife won't kiss me during sex". Swallowed RP June 2017. I have lurked and have delved into the sidebar (read nnmng (2x), SGM, 16 Commandants of Poon, Book of Pook, ready to read MMSLP). Sex life has gotten better. I planned my first post to be an OYS, but I am currently in need of guidance.

First things first: 47m married to 42f together 19yrs married 14 of those. 2 kids aged 7 and 9.

Weight is 185lbs with about 17% body fat (via Navy method), working 5/3/1 program (for about 2 months) 1rm Squats=145lbs, Bench 140lbs, OHP 140lbs, Deadlift 165lbs.

ISSUE: Wife and I communicated daily via text during her lunch hour. I used this time to game her. Last Monday I joked about some anonymous girl, nothing new, and wife got upset. She was pissy so I AM and AA and eventually told her if she wants to leave then give me papers and I will gladly sign them if they are fair. She agreed. She was sleep on the couch when I got home from work that night. Next day I failed and snooped, found that she looked into divorce. 2 more days of her attitude, still no text at lunchtime.

Thursday I texted her that I was taking her out for lunch. At lunch I went a little beta and asked her what was the deal with the attitude, and probably deered a little. Long story short, we resolved the issues, or so I thought. We had sex that night but it was not great, I thought about ending it but I was too close to stop so cavemanned it.

Friday, still no text. I didn't let it bother me. We had sex again Saturday, much better than Thursday.

Today, again no text. I lost frame and my emotions got the best of me and I called her. I basically told her that I keep this time open for her and if she didn't want to use it then I have better things to do with it. She said she wanted the time. I know that I sounded pathetic, so I said goodbye before I started talking like an idiot.

So my question is: what's up with this? I love my wife and I want us to be a family but since I swallowed the pill I am also content with things ending. Not my ideal situation but I can deal with it, I just know it's the best thing for our kids. I think I will come out on top with a divorce but I really want to make this work. She is not the best girl in the world but I love her and I want this to work... but within my frame .