I would like to thank the red pill for singlehandedly influencing my life.

I last night posted onto r/dating about a query I have had with a girl I have met. The hate and abuse I received was obvious but fuck it I was drunk.

The red pill inspired me to get into shape, improve my business, approach a fuck load, and try to become an alpha male.

It came at a price, I spent a shit load of money on fitness gear, I spent a shit load on hotels, personal trainers, cocktails, you name it.

I have sinitus which is no fun, but allows me to get ill quite easily. No fun when sluts often have mono.

But I have come to the conclusion that I can no longer handle this lifestyle. Im 27 yet I am physically and mentally drained.

Drained from the constant approaching and flirting, the flakes, the getting ill, the alcohol, the no deeper meaning and superficial nature of every encounter.

So I met somebody, who mentally ticks off most of the boxes, until discovering her text game fucking sucks.

So much for a good girl when shes terrible at replying and is effectively no different to sluts you take to a hotel. Essentially really nice and cool girl, so met through my dad spoke a bit, but not allowed it to escalate at all. Gone in for asking her out, to which shes not confirmed and is now playing games, so fuck that)

You cannot win, because as much as I would like to give up the booze and nights out, I cannot bring myself to try and convince some average girl to go out with me.

More importantly, even if she is bad at texts and doesnt want to confirm a night to drink then shes not interested. Which is a shame, because finding a girl who isnt into social media, good family etc is hard to come by these days.

Its funny as I have a plate who casually gives me what I want on the side, yet Im still just sick of the whole scene.

I think being alpha, or what it is to be alpha is about doing whats best for you.

Not necessarily being a player, yet not necessarily being a player.

Right now for me, is to just accept women these days are not dateable. Or maybe I am not dateable. Whatever, its just how it is.

This is the hardest hardest truth Ive ever met. I'm 27 and seen a lot of girls, slept with loads yet never had a serious relationship.

Odd? Maybe, I was a beta for years, and also I have standards to not be with a whore.

So thank you TRP for making me better, but the world and these women will always be the same. Oh well.