EDIT: I'm taking this down, due to overwhelmingly negative response.

In Neil Strauss's "Game", Mystery after doing a similar thing I did to my LTR was taken to the mental institution because of a mental breakdown. I believe I had similar issues in my life, because I behaved in a similar way and treated my LTR in a similar way.

I believe I lived through similar event without resorting to institutional help. This was hard. This post was the description how I did it.

I was asking none of you for help here. When I ask, I post in AskMRP instead.

I do have my issues and I have my solutions. Solutions I was unable to find without MRP. I realize, that even if some areas overlap, those may not be the issues of most people. RP truths still do apply.

I realize most of critics weren't there or just did not have to, thus I will not be understood. That's okay. I'll discuss this post privately with some, perhaps this will make it better before releasing it to general public - if ever.