I apologize for the wall of text. I tried to make it at least entertaining. TLDR at the bottom.

My wife is in first trimester. Before last week and specifically before recent bunch of threads about dealing with pregnant wives I was under impression to keep dreading but lighten it up a bit. The danger in that especially for guys that are still unplugging is that it's entirely too easy to backslide into beta and lose your momentum. For guys that have been on the pill for 12 months or more I would say you know what you're doing. You can manage the dread better but for me I found myself with sex cut from 4x a week to once and a blowjob. Albeit her blowjobs are starting to be stellar but I still don't get the oxytocin hit and don't feel as bonded to her as after a full PIV sex. So to me it's like being cut from 4x to 1.5x a week.

Missed Opportunity Sunday night at a friend's birthday party a friend of mine who works in the same machine shop I do, let it slip to my wife in a joking manner that this new milf at a shop we work at has joined me on my lunch walks. I work in an office so I use lunch to get off my ass and increase my heart rate for half an hour or so.

This was a golden opportunity to use this half-sabotage to my advantage and A&A him and my wife both. That woman does show me IOIs and is very good looking for her age. But me like a little good beta bitch said that why would I want her if I have this (showing off my wife) at home. I immediately realized what I've done, but the opportunity was gone. Sure I defended myself and what he did is in fact good for my marriage indicating that other women are starting to notice me, but I reassured my wife and changed the topic. I think A&A would have worked much better to my advantage in that context. Of course I didn't get laid that night, though she did blow me before the party so all is good.

Dread Field Report While Sunday was interesting, that was the first sex in almost a week. Last PIV was on Monday so there were 5 days in-between of me slipping, forgetting to own my shit and letting her slide cause she's pregnant. On top of it it was just a BJ so it's like half sex IMO.

Monday the memorial day we both worked, then went to the gym. It was a long day but I still initiated. She gave me a BS excuse that she herself couldn't believe in. But since this is TRP, we don't whine about sex. I said fine, read a book for a while and went to sleep. I did make a note to self to increase the dread.

Tuesday morning a perfect opportunity came up. I was planning on being a little distant and cold but cordial. Kind of brooding if you will. My wife gets up with me. I leave for work before 7 AM. We had some playful banter, she took my last comment as I was getting ready to go (about 1 in a 1000 twins being from different fathers) and tried to start a fight that I don't trust her etc.

Me being a beta would immediately apologize and reassure that I trust her and would never think that. Fortunately I recognized an opportunity when it presented it to myself, grabbed my things and instead of apologizing and kissing her goodbye like I always do, I turned around and left.

As I was driving, she called. I thought she called to apologize, but she wanted to have a fight. I listened to her diatribe and hung up without saying a word. She then texted me. When I finally got to work I texted her back stating "I was having a playful conversation with you. Then you go all insane. I am done with it." She answered "What do you mean I am done with it?" I ignored her. Note that she didn't mention anything about me calling her insane. She's a smart girl.

She must have gotten busy then with our daughter, driving her to school and going to work herself. That must have been enough time for her hamster to tire itself out. She later texted me "What time are you going to be home?" I was busy and did not respond. She later texted me with "Why can't you respond to me?" I waited another 15 minutes then wrote "Busy, I'll be home at 4:30." She then texted me that she would make the dinner I told her I wanted and that's why she wanted to know what time I was coming home.

I got home, she was pleasant, we had dinner. Then she had some clients for hair cuts, I had to work on my client's computer. She then gave me a haircut, we went out for ice cream then put our daughter to bed. She never mentioned the morning argument.

I was planning to take a shower like I always do before bed then to initiate. This is where she surprised me. She said you better take the shower now or I'll fall asleep. This is as much of an initiation from her as I'm ever going to get.

TLDR: Missed opportunity for light dread with A&A when in front of my wife my friend brought up a female coworker showing interest in me. Successfully turned around a potential fight with my wife into dinner, hair cut and sex.