I have an anger issue. But mostly only towards my wife. I lose my temper way too quick on my wife. It’s like everything she does or says annoys me. It’s a constant nag. Nag. nag.
ignore her don’t work. She asks why I’m ignoring her. changing the subject don’t work bc she asks why I’m changing the subject. AA don’t work. Bc She will say why are you avoiding what I’m asking or give me an “no seriously”. AM don’t work she will say why can’t I just talk to her normal. talking to her don’t work because then I’m DEERing. I withdraw attention then she asks why I never spend time with her. I dont spend time with her because then she bumbars me with shit I don’t want to talk about. I tell her I don’t want to talk about it she asks why I can’t communicate with her. I try to NGAF then she says I’m not respecting her. I try to fog. Then it gets to a point where I’m like “I’m sorry you feel that way” and it’s “I fucking hate when you say that shit. It’s like you don’t even give a fuck about this relationship”
And that’s on a good day we can get to that point. So then what? After all that I fucking don’t want to hear her speak. She’s the best wife ever if she would just not speak. Ever.
I tried the whole oldest teenager mindset. Only she doesn’t act like a teenager. She acts like a grown woman who isn’t satisfied with anything ever. Think of the times when someone annoyed you so much it was almost an instinct to be like “would you shut the fuck up already?”
It makes me not want to fuck her. It makes me not want to talk to her. So I should probably leave but I’m trying hard to salvage this relationship before I go rogue.
I have withdrawn as much attention as I can. Made my life so busy. We barely see each other and the couple hours I get to spend with her. By the end I want to hand her by her toes outside the balcony.
I have never needed to take it this far with any other women. I AA Or AM and they stfu. Or laugh. Move on.
When I tell you I’m trying to take my Anger out else where. I go to the gym 2-3 times a day and do bjj. I come home and the second she opens her mouth I want to round house kick her. I realize I’m probably going to be told I’m being a faggot but she incites a rage in me I can’t put out.
And the hardest part is she provides so much value otherwise. She’s loyal. She cooks. She cleans. She has her life in order. Good family. She’ll be Great mother one day. Very caring. Fucks me whenever I want Bends over backwards for me. But I just can’t stand being around her anymore. It’s so forced. And it never used to be.
I’m at a point now I don’t give a fuckkkk. I told her she’s annoying. Straight up. You annoy me. Stop being annoying. I feel like I’m tuning into a psycho bc of it.
How do I stop this??!