- 5’8. 152 lbs. BF about 13-14% 5x5 stats SQ 200, DL260, BP 150, OHP 100, Row 110
Have not read anything from sidebar in the last few weeks. Just working on owning my shit, STFU and my business.
I’ve mentioned before that due to some trust issues and blue pill nice guy fuck ups, my wife takes my phone sometimes. Usually when I’m asleep.
I thought my phone was clean. I wasn’t signed into anything. Not clean enough.
I discovered MRP when I was close to being kicked out of the house as my wife thought I was messing around. It was then branded an emotional affair after she went through my emails. I was also fine with moving out and wanted to leave but stayed. Money, kids, fear, being a BP faggot are the reasons. We saw a councillor and you know how that goes.
I forgot that when I first came across redpill, I put the link into the reading list in my browser. I completely forgot about this as I never use the reading list.
I had NMMNG something from a pua website which is a dead link. Poon Cheatau heartiste
She discovered these and is especially referencing the pua site and poon as me wanting to be a misogynist, wanting to find other women, bringing back the “emotional affair”.
Due to the info she read, especially poon and a pua web link, I fell into my old self of DEERing. Tried to limit it and did not disclose any further info about Fight Club. Just said “judge me on my actions” which I feel are owning my shit and taking her feels into account. Links were sent to her family and my sister.
Let’s be honest, from a Disney fairytale, treat her like a princess or equal, some parts of the sidebar are not “nice”.
How would you handle it if wife found that part of MRP/TRP as the only parts. I could have DEERed more and explained the positive side of fight club but we’re not supposed to talk about it.