40 y/o, 6'4" 253lbs, doing SL 5x5. Making great progress following MRP program,
Sex went from 2x/mo starfish/ duty to 2-3x/wk & enthusiastic since starting MRP in January. Been pushing the envelope sexually, she's liked it all so far (hard pounding, doggy style, throwing her around, pulling hair, dirty talk) just doing the things I want to do instead of gentle love making & constantly asking her if it feels good to her.
Prior to last night, I have blasted in my wife's mouth exactly once - which was the first time she blew me, 17 years ago. She swallowed, then told me she wasn't cool with it, don't do it again. I didn't...EVER... even though that's exactly what I've wanted to do. This might have been my first failed shit test.
So, it's the tail end of shark week, and I initiated after we had a couple of drinks. Started out with her playing with my dick, I initiated sex, but she resisted, orbs still shark week (she feels gross, etc). I told her to suck my dick, she did. I pulled her hair, pushed her head down a little and thrusted into her some - nothing rough, but all things I've never really done to her. She didn't protest, but I could tell she wasn't thrilled. At that point, I knew she'd be saying something to her good little beta boy after i finished to get me back in line...fuck it, might as well go all-in, right? The time came for the grand finale, I said "mmmm, I'm gonna cum in your mouth" a couple of seconds before blast off - she didn't make an effort to stop it (didn't take my dick out) so I blasted, she took the first burst, then got up quickly as the remainder shot onto my belly. I could hear her scrambling and spitting in the bathroom, etc...she was pissed & appeared near tears when I next saw her.
Without ever saying I'm sorry, I simply said, "I never thought you would react that way" her: "in all our time together, you haven't done that because you know I don't like it...i only blew you because I knew you wanted sex - I was doing you a favor" me: "I just did what felt good to me" her: "like pulling my hair and pushing my head down? You know I don't like that" me: "yeah, I liked all of that... maybe the best blowjob you've ever given me" kissed her forehead, told her I love her and went to sleep.
Nothing awkward this morning, normal hugs and kisses when I left for work. I'm not sure I will get another BJ to completion anytime soon, but it felt good to do what I've wanted to do all along. I probably should've waited for my SMV to increase before being so bold, but WTH, I went for it and seem to have produced no ill effects.