So I swallowed the pill about 3 months ago. 36, 2 little kids. Married 13 years. I’ve naturally had some alpha behaviors most of my life, and others beta. More alpha than beta until the last 3 years ago. Been lost. Depression and anxiety owned me. Wife was supportive, but I can only imagine the insecurity she felt through it all.
I’m far from being “there” with regards to TRP, but I’m progressing aggressively. I’ve always worked out. More seriously now and hitting new PR’s such as 265x5 BP at only 170lbs bodyweight. I’ve improved my wardrobe some but need to work on it more. New job is stable and provides plenty.
I’m internalizing some things such as frame. It’s beginning to come naturally. More consistently. I get it. Talking less seems to be progressing as well, although slower.
My sex life is basic and inconsistent as well. Not what I’m wanting. I’m guessing it’s the last thing to improve. I haven’t applied dread yet.
Here’s where it gets weird for me. I don’t know what I want. I also am starting to genuine not care what my wife thinks about just about anything except matters regarding raising the kids. That’s a weird one for me. I don’t want to say I’ve lost respect.
I’m beginning the shed the last bit of depression that’s been hanging over me, and man are things looking different. It’s quite confusing.
Can anyone else relate to this? Normal?