WARNING: Just a bunch of random thoughts and reflections i been having.
1: Finally got around my fuckarounditis and been going to the gym consistently, finally understood why lifting is the cornerstone of redpill, been feeling a lot better, emotions more in control, better discipline at work, i feel calm and confident most of the time, no diet yet, been researching on keto and looks like the way to go. Wife seems to like the fact im being consistent, sex life is on a very good point, wife is squirting like crazy again, awesome blowjobs, rimjobs you name it, but she's been trying to sabotage via the food, told her i'm going to make a few changes on food, avoid sugar and bread (carbs), and been pushing for brownies cake etc, but i just ignore and carry on.
2: Now that i'm going to the gym, wife has been talking about taking care of herself, a friend of ours goes to girls only bodyweight classes 3 days a week, so i arranged for my friend to pick her up, i offered to take car of the baby at that time etc, been 2 weeks and she hasn't gone a single day.
On that same line of thought, started talking about taking care of herself, i reminded her that she got a bunch of supplements and vitamins at home, that she could start taking them again, and now comes the fun part, wife started talking how she would like to stop working to take care of herself, told her it was not feasible at this moment, and then started how she wanted to have a social life, got to the gym, sleep until late etc, i know STFU.... but it was too great of a opportunity to let it pass, i say it was a GREAT idea, we could take turns at it, i for a year while she takes care of herself, and then next year i take care of myself while she works, lol had a lot of fun with her hamster trying to counter that, never touched the subject again.
3: The shitty part, i have a daughter from a relationship, wife been increasingly shittier in that part, last time my daughter was here i had to go out to some office stuff and she stayed at home with my wife, and she treated her like shit, my daughter didn't tell me anything, but told her grandma ( my mom). had a talk with my wife about it and she agreed to be courteous.
This weekend we had plans to go to the wifes best friend wedding, i took care of the travel plans, money etc, wife got new dress, etc. Problems started once wife was notified, my daughter was going with us, ( how the invitation was for 2 persons and stuff like that, )so i told her to go by herself, so we didn't become a problem, after that she changed her tune.
When i picked up my daughter problems arose again, ignoring her, forgetting to serve her dinner, making remarks my daughter played with the baby, so after kids were asleep notified wife, she would go by herself, and gave her the bus/uber money offered to take her to the bus station in the morning. Next morning threw a tantrum on how i was ruined everything for her bla bla bla, so she did not go to the wedding, and threw herself on depression.....
And i don't care anymore, while i wasn't going, i gave her the means to go, she was responsible for going or not, her tantrums instead of affecting me like before, looked to me like a teenager, if she goes, she stays that her problem not mine, im not going to put any pussy above my daughter or my son.