Have written some OYS and I'm clearly new to MRP but I'll give you a short intro about me.
Have been working on myself for real for about 1 month now. Reading the sidebar, lifting and working on my frame cause that's my weakest part.
Anyways, we are on a trip w the whole family (including my parents, my brothers family and my sisters) to a sun resort.
Two incidences happened and last one made me write this message because of anger.
- First night I was feeding the kid and wife was walking around the apartment cleaning and unpacking the stuff. As she was going in an out of rooms the kid got really sad and started crying like crazy when mom left the room. (cause it's almost bed time and baby is tired). She couldn't really stop crying so I took her up and it didn't help much, put her back and told the wife to come back. She did, lifted her up and got her shirt dirty cause the kid had some food on the bib (?).
Wife got fucking crazy as her shirt got dirty, raising her voice, basically screaming at me plus starting hitting my shoulder to "go fucking away". I was stunned by this behavior so I just left the room, went up to the rooftop bar, had a few drinks and went down again after she messages and called me so I can watch the kid while she eats and washes her face. Now in retrospect I don't think it was the best solution. Next morning like nothing happened.
- Dad organized a buffet for the whole family gang one evening. Everyone arrived, sitting down and I got up to get food for the kid. Slightly stressed because wife already succeeded to be a douche to my brother by taking back my kids toy from his son with a shitty attitude. I am picking stuff and she comes to me and says 'go get that meat', while I reply 'can you fucking relax, I will in a silent ish tone '
She becomes bat shit crazy and basically throws a tantrum in front of everyone. Telling me to drive her and the kid home and that I'm not allowed to scream or swear at her. (She raises her voice and says Fuck you to me too much). I instantly knows it's gonna be a shit evening.
I pussy out and tell her I'm sorry for saying 'fucking relax' and I don't know why I did that.
She tells me to finish feeding the kid and to drive her home, I say its not gonna happen and that she can calm down and relax. It doesn't get much better, telling me to give her the credit card while she leaves the restaurant with the kid. You can imagine the faces of my family. In this moment I didn't care anymore, fucking bitch.
My mom told me to go talk some sense in her, I basically went to her and apologized again like a fucking pussy. Almost begged her to come back to finish the meal.
She came back and I acted like nothing happened while she was just watching her phone and ignoring anyones questions.
My mom told me later in privacy she can't be this disrespectful and that she needs to chill the Fuck down. That I need to raise her to behave more properly and polite.
I would have dumped her instantly if it wasn't for that kid.
I know it's my fault cause I let this happen. I know it's my fault cause she clearly doesn't respect me since I'm not a man to respect. Similar situations have happened before and I'm always tip toeing around my family with her cause I don't wanna upset. Fuck. Writing this makes it so clear how deeply I'm in her frame and I'm mentally stuck because she always has the upper hand cause she is the mother of my kid.
That was my victim puke. It feels good to let it out. I hate myself for letting her go this far with the behavior.
TL:Dr: wife throws a tantrum in front of big family dinner
Lots of comments and info to grasp. Thanks for everyone's contributions, reading all this indicates there's clearly some hard work ahead.
Wife is still pissed. I don't care, but she is only talking about divorce. I've been out with the kid by the pool while she has been home and crying and what not.
My family is in another hotel and I don't know if I should go be with them instead.
Anyways, I know I need to improve myself and I'm slowly getting there. These moments give me more fire.
Meeting a divorce lawyer to make sure she can't take my kid from the country without my approval.