2x lifting, 3x rowing, 3x cycling. Told my wife of 3 years, 8yrs together, that I want a divorce about 10 days ago. This week-end I found an appartment I like. Need to close the deal so I can move there asap. I have no children. I am 40, 185lbs x 6' and in excellent shape. In the last ten days read Beyond Mars and Venus, NMMNG!, and currently reading HTWFAIP. I feel like I am escaping from a prison. I'm gidy but afraid to be recaptured somehow. Don't want to look back but we are under the same roof for a while; at least unti January. I have been a classic looser Beta. I have been lazy and settled for horrible sex and horrible feelings and guilt and being emotive and shit. Sooo many sshiot tests failed. God. Fuck all that though - I am so out! I found TRP 2 days after I told the wife I wanted out. You guys are phenomenal. So glad to join this group. Cheers.