Seven months ago I rolled in here with a bunch of stupid questions.
I got some advice which I tried in my own paste-eating way to implement. Some parts of it went better than others.
Last week, my LTR and I had The Talk. "You've changed" and "I don't feel the same way about you that I used to" were two of the key phrases. Can't even call it a main event since it wasn't a fight-- fighting implies an effort of imposing your will on your opponent and I wasn't about to fight to keep her.
What I learned from this: I thought I had internalized what I've been learning here. In reality, I was approaching the process like many, many noobs do. I wanted more sex and a better relationship, and I thought I could redpill my way to it with her.
I thought I was doing a good job handling covert contracts and expectations. In reality, I managed to demine a few lightly buried covert contracts but not the big ones: the biggest being "If I improve, she will want to fuck me more."
On the one hand, this smells like failure: I wanted more from this relationship but, instead of getting more, I now got zero.
On the other hand, there never could be a more clear demonstration of the "kill the boy" effect. There's nothing like falling flat on your face to help you learn.
Luckily I have deadlifts this evening.