Sometimes I get this 1000-yard-stare, thinking of nothing in particular. Feeling somewhat empty and a little bit sad.

My wife notice that and keeps asking whats going on. Most of the times I don't know myself.

I am going on a business trip and I know I am going to miss her, guess that's why I am down these days.

So when she asked I told her whats going on. That I gonna miss her and I wished I could spend more time with her. She was very affectionate and told me that I don't always have to act so manly.

So this is what bother me - she thinks of my new found attitude as an act and I guess she is right in part, but you got to start somewhere. On the other side there are feelings I can't hide from her.

I just don't know how I can turn this. By telling her I will miss her, she tries to comfort me and this makes me the weak part. I should comfort her and she should miss me. I am totally in her frame on this.

So how can I cope with this? I don't have a strategie for this