So my wife had an affair, and fell in love while she was working overseas after about 6 months, and was still texting him behind my back after she got home. When she cheated I was also at a low point in my life, between jobs while she worked which didn't help either. Since she had been back the relationship was doing well, frequent sex etc, even while she was still txting him also, and she was even planning to go see him. She was trying to choose, and still on the fence, I think she had chosen me, but idk.
Anyway I found out, and called her out, She admitted and begged me to let her stay so we could work it out, and I told her to leave... now she's home with family out of state and still calling, and writing me letters telling me she loves me, and how badly she knows she fucked up, saying I'm the love of her life. When she left I had told her there was no possible chance and I could never look at her the same b/c the innocent, sweet girl I knew had become a whore and a basic girl.
I don't want to let her go b/c she is a objectively high quality girl, and our relationship was great. Fun together, no fights, sex everyday or 2x per, great cook, she would do adventurous hobbies, and very pretty, probably a 9. I'm not sure I could find another as cool as her. Anyway before I pull the plug I would appreciate some perspective. I'm still blinded by emotion and confusion, so my question to you is:
TL;DR I know AWALT so is it worth it throwing away a great girl and a great relationship, for a fresh start but no guarantee I could find a girl as good?