First post. Started swallowing 3 months ago. Agree totally with many observations that swallowing the red pill is a long process not one quick fix. I am lifting for the first time which I am surprised I love. Willingness to interact and game with everyone has improved. I am 46. wife 42. married 20 years. I reckon the slide into the beta phase coincides with arrival of 2nd child so maybe 13 years. My biggest issue and fear is how our relationship moves with my wife's cycle. Sex has been improving in frequency. We have sex during shark week. We have sex either side of shark week but I get clear refusals and avoidance when she is ovulating. The fact she doesn't want me when I know she is horny is really upsetting, killing my frame, making me very very mad.
I know one or all of the following apply: (1) I am not alpha enough for her during that time (as per MMSL) (2) She knows she is horny and doesn't like it / fears it (3) There is an AF actively in play I haven't seen anyone post about this type of behaviour (although ATOL mentions it) so was wondering if anyone had similar experiences they had worked through?