I wrote this up but didn’t know of the moderated 3 day limit for new accounts to post directly on MRP so posting here.
Brand new to reddit. Brand new to this sub. First post and considering what today is, might as well be my official start of how things are gonna be from now on. I have been holding the red pill in my hand since the beginning of this year. No more fucking around. Im doing this.
Been married for almost 4 years, together for 10 and we have a an amazing little girl who is about to turn 2. We both work fulltime jobs but my salary is over 75% of our combined income. This post is not a backstory about my past beta journey but more of a line in the sand I am drawing because things are not the way I want them to be.
I came across MRP in late December and srsly fucking opened my eyes. It was like i was reading my life story. How the hell did i not see this until now? I have been beta without knowing it for so long! No more of it. I started lifting ASAP to get in shape. I am owning my shit and no more of this beta lifestyle i have been so blind to.
Since Jan, every now and then I try to make an alpha move without a goal or direction. All of them have backfired. For example my buddy came back from out of town and wanted to meet up for a drink on a Friday night. Wife was watching shit reality TV and I said im going out to meet him and i walked out the door. Well that led to texts and phone calls and a fight later for going out for drinks, even though our kid was put to bed and she was watching TV at home either way... Pretty sure I vacuumed the house the next day ti “make up” for my mistake of going to see my friend...
Initiated sex about a dozen times if i was to estimate and only twice I have been able to get some. And it wasn’t great it was supremely mediocre. Nothing this month of Feb yet but i initiated only a few times to be shut down.
Well- onto my reason for making my post today!
Today is valentines day, the most beta holiday ever. I knew that she does not deserve some elaborate reward if chocolates and a nice dinner or whatever else. But I still decided to wake up early this morning and make breakfast of pancakes and bacon and eggs. (pancakes in shape of hearts... 🙄) which is something I would not normally do. Well she came down and I had it all set up, she doesn’t acknowledge me or my breakfast i prepared and instead walks to the sink and tells me “next time don’t stack the pans on top of each other cause they will scratch”... srsly! made me so mad but I didnt show it or say OK i just ignored her and got our daughter ready for daycare...
Before my wife left she did say thank you and it was thoughtful and get this... and leaned over towards me to make a kiss face but didnt actually kiss me, it was her allowing me to come in to kiss her. She said she had lip shit on so blah blah blah...
Anyway today I will be going out after work to play hockey (play in a weekly league) and have no idea what I will do when I come home. Totally ignore? Pretend all is good and try to see if she wants to have sex? One thing is for sure, this is the last time in my life I am going to make fucking heart shaped pancakes!!