Sorry about puking here, but lately everything financial has been going wrong with my life, and i feel like i can't deal with it anymore, First my small business is a car wash, and has been rain season during the last two months, was able to open 18 days in the las 2 months, and between rent, salaries, taxes, accountant, lawyer plus a costly repair from some water damage i been losing a lot of money. As a back up i found a job 10 hours from my house and i had to stay with a friend, money is very good but hours are long and i have stay 1-2 weeks at a time, my friend has been having problems with his wife and i might need to find a place to , to make matters worse i lost my fucking work permit, and that means i have to reapply, and might not get it approved again. This has severe consequences and the income im making is needed to pay the debts my business got during january-february, everytime i get a dime, is gone in a couple of hours. My fucking phone died, and can't afford a new one, because my friend is having problems with his wife i no longer have wifi, have to to a mcdonalds to get internet, so basically i'm uncommunicated most of the day, when i get out of work basically i have to be alone all day long, cant even make a phone call, i just keep enough money for gas and cheapest food i can get, everything else i use it to pay debts. MAIN PROBLEM: Now that i lost my work permit im able to work until march 22, after that it might be a couple of months i won't be able to work.
My wife is managing the business while im gone but she isn't very good at it, she makes her best effort but it just isn't the same, i feel so fucking frustrated and stupid, i just can't deal with it anymore, been having thoughts of getting a life insurance and have an accident, sex life is awesome, but financial life is killing me, i feel like i can never rest one day, when i go home after working 1-2 weeks of 12-16 hours shifts, i have to go and work on my business, if i want to stay home i can't rest because i'm thinking of how much money i need.
Sorry about puking like this is just that i can't deal with life anymore.
Context: Im in Mexico, so a small business like mine makes $80-150 US per day, gas is US $4 per gallon, the work i got is making me about $80 per day ( a very good wage down here)