It feels like when I act too strong/dominant I make people feel uncomfortable, and thus not like me. I can't stand to make people feel uncomfortable because of me. I will act passive/submissive (feminine af I know) around men so that they can feel powerful and good. It's a fucked up trait. I seem to care more about what others feel than what I feel. I was raised by a single-mom and almost certainly picked it up from her. I'll be so quickly forgiving of people when they do fucked up shit to me, straight insult me, hurt me in various ways. Then I'll just hold major resentment towards the person and myself when I am in my bed.

And this of course goes for women, I try to impress them and do things to make them like me. It seems like whenever I am around people I either want sexually or look-up to/respect I get sucked in that person's frame. I then don't do things under my own frame but in what I think will make the other person like me most, like saying and doing things I think they will accept as "good". Most of the time I am operating on what I want to do. But when a person like that of an old friend/family member or a person in a powerful position like a manager/boss/leader I'll just become all passive/submissive. It's almost like I become feminine, I make myself seem small and insignificant. I seem so fearful of their disapproval. I hate this trait and behavior so much. What is this? and how do I stop this?