Is it a unicorn? Nope

Oneitus? Nope

I’ve dated at least 10 women while vetting her and she’s been holding it down for a while with all my ups and downs and I kinda think it would be foolish to not get more serious with her about commitment. You know, before she hits the wall. I want to bed her while she’s still attractive. But it’s all come down to this, one women vs my collection of plates. I won’t be the cool guy who brings a strange hot women to the Christmas party anymore. It will be the picket fences guy raising his kids in the country. I’ve reminded myself that sex isn’t something I’m given up if we got married. I’m fairly attractive and she’s just an HB8 who has had a fairly promising upbringing from childhood. But i wouldn’t call it a silver spoon. Anyways am I missing something? If I say I’m in love with her does it mean she’s in love with me? I recognize this is a choice and not some hole you fall into so I take responsibility for these feelings. I’m a little afraid of starting a new relationship.