I used to be a massive beta orbitor back in the day and like this chick in my group at college to the point where everyone knew how thirsty I was for her. I eventually grew balls to ask her out, she said no, I got super sad and stopped talking to her and the group because she rejected me, made new friends and re-invented myself. Three years later discovered redpill and the rest is history. I became hyper aware of my beta-orbitor like behavior and now almost gone the other extreme to the point where I never ever hit on people when other people I know are around me.

Upon reflection, this event seemed to have affected me more than I realise. I meet lots of girls through friends but honestly never escalate and take it anywhere out of this innate fear of people I know talking about how I got rejected. How do I get over it? I don't care if strangers see me getting rejected, as I approach lots and get rejected plenty when I am by myself, but when others I know are around, it is a different story. Someone give me some advice. Someone give me a kick in the balls that I need.