I don't have anybody in my life I could openly discuss this with so I'm just going to post this here in hopes of finding a solution or at least a few people who share the same sentiment.
I followed the advice in TRP for about half a year now and I've gone from total skinny gamer sperg to having decent muscle mass and hobbies beyond gaming and a few new friends that I made in university. An old oneitis hit me up recently because her family and mine are good friends and she wanted to express that she felt awful for me because my dad died a few months ago. We kept texting on a friendly basis and during one night of casual sexting I proposed that we could be fuckbuddies, to which she surprisingly agreed. I was a virgin at that point (which she didn't) know but I was just gonna wing it and not care too much which ended up working out okay.
Before and after we had sex (she stayed at my place for a weekend) we cuddled and she had her hands on my chest and stroked my hand and my arms and all that affectionate stuff that I didn't really know before. We slept in the same bed during the night, all cuddled up and now this is where my problem come in: I miss her a lot, and I don't mean her body or the sex, but the affection she displayed towards me. It went as far as me holding back tears of happiness while it went on because it felt like this was what I was missing my whole life up to this point and now that she's back at her place (which is 2 hours away) I really miss it. This sounds super desperate and needy and I'm doing my best to ignore it but I just felt the need to try and discuss this specific situation with somebody who understands more about all this than I do. I can't talk about this with people I know irl because what loser cries over something as basic as affection, am I right?
I feel like a simp whining about it and missing it and I would like to change that. I hope some of you can empathize and offer me some advice.