24 yrs old
6 ft tall
Married 2 years end of this year.
Honestly, i found Trp at the start of our marriage 2 years ago. Was already a drunk captain and so i read but did not internalize. The initial shock to this information was not enough to wake me up.
“Everything is peachy with my wife, i get regular sex and little resistance.” I read all the stories and learned nothing.
My wife trusted me to steer and i was asleep.
No game (oh im married that isnt for me) no frame (i was incompetent) and no money (no job). I just made excuses. I did lift, but not consistently enough to see real results. My wife covered my half of the bills while i smoked weed and fucked off. I took advantage of her and i worsened as a person. I look back and have only myself to blame.
Even through all of this she persevered. Her faith unshaken she remained loyal and gleeful regardless of the burden i placed on her.
Until my good friend killed himself.
I got the call and immediately broke down.
I was the most vulnerable i had ever been in my life, i broke down in front if my wife.
That was the last straw.
Even in mourning i noticed she looked at me differently. She saw me in a new light and i could do nothing about it. No sex , arguments, and fights(her physically hitting me) ensue. I willingly go about my days feeling depresses and snappy, and this goes on for a week.
I am sitting there alone thinking to myself about how it all came to this. TRP flickers back to me. I discover this sub roughly 90 days ago.
Since then i have began reading through the sidebar, i have been regularly (3 days a week) lifting, i have actually begun to internalize what it means to game your wife.(rather, i feel as if i am on the right track). A MAP has been drawn and Dread is in full force. (At the point of going outside the house without my wife to pursue my own hobbies)
Now i am doing better for myself, for myself.
Initially there was a lag time. I slowly woke up and began steering after she assumed i was incapable of doing so. I broke her trust with my actions so i can not even blame her. She got angrier. I stfu.
After a month and a half of no sex, she slowly began opening back up to me and this past week she has been “like her old self” almost as if i had been at the helm the whole time. She is willing to give me a second chance at our life together. Or so i thought.
She opened up privately to me and said she wants to get into a threesome.
Strictly MFF, one time only, “lets agree on boundaries and expectations beforehand”, not anyone we know, only if you want to, i think it would be hot. Ect.
It is obvious that she has thought about it. Initially i made fun of the idea with her for a bit and then never brought it up again. Three days ago. She brought it up again today.
Honestly i am at an impasse.
This is something you would think every man would want but i am not so sure that i do. The idea of opening that door that can not be closed seems like a slippery slope and i do not want to lose my marriage. Not only that, but the combination of harsh things said and done so recently lead me to believe there might be hidden motives.
That said, my intent with this post is to get TRP perspective on my wife’s sudden change of heart.
Is it normal for a woman to flip so quickly?
Should this be alarming to me in any way?
Is my wife actually becoming my personal little slut trying to realize a fantasy of every man, or is she secretly just wanting sex with not me?
Is this something i should consider pursuing?
Can marriages last once you cross that line?
Honestly my only hang up with the idea that this can ruin our relationship. My dick loves the idea of getting wet but not if it means my marriage fails in the long run.
TlDr; drunk captain falls out of grace with wife. Finds sub and begins to wake up, wife warms up after a month and a half of no sex and is receptive to my changes for the better.90 days of sub implementation thus far. Shares she wants to be in a threesome. Why? Should i pursue? Is this a shit test?(seeing as its so soon into my mrp journey)
No matter what comes of this, thank you guys for saving my life.