This is both a cry for help and a warning.
Background:- Met this lovely girl, from school. I honestly was just friends with her at first, never anything really sexual. She ends up liking me - apparently she used to rant on the bus about me not asking her out. Basically long story short I ask her out, she says yes. Now bluepill me thinks "Yay!! I'm dating my best friend this is amazing!!"
WRONG - The only reason she fell in love was because of my terrible behaviour. I would never compliment her and I'd pretty much be care-free. The fact I am dating a friend makes breaking up so much harder and there is a social consequence for fucking anything up.
No it's not fucking amazing. Because I was never sexual to begin with I struggle to be sexual. I try kissing her, she turns her cheek. She plays games and tries to make me jealous. She complains about my lack of sexuality whilst she herself behaves awkwardly. I kiss her cheek in the morning, she doesn't smile or anything gives me a simple "ok".
The main warning is:-
- Don't date girls that you were never sexual to begin with
- Don't date girls that know your friends/social circle
- Don't date girls and then start being "nice", this girl kept telling me to be nice - my bluepilled ass fell for it. She doesn't like it.
- Don't date girls before you had sex. She's already fulfilled her objective before you have. As a woman she seeks commitment, as a man you seek sex.
- DON'T DENY THE REDPILL!
I cannot stress this. I thought this girl was some sort of unicorn - I'm a fucking idiot I know. Christian, goes church every Sunday, volunteers in the church to sing and dresses modestly. That shit doesn't matter! They're all the same, just because a horse is painted with black and white stripes doesn't make it a zebra. Just because a girl is all these good things doesn't make her less of a bitch.
Now I am in this position. In a relationship where any form of physical contact is awkward - haven't been told "stop touching me", but she seems not bothered. I will be lying if I said I didn't have one-itis. This girl was a good friend of mine before, the bluepill inside me is saying to wait it out. But I have a feeling I should leave.
Thank you for reading this. I pray you don't become a fucking idiot like me. The redpill is the truth and nothing but the truth. Women will want to change you into this beta, and then they will crush you.