That moment your bp reality came crashing down.

She's had 15 dicks, 2 were ons bjs. 1 was a fwb but just bjs roughly 40 times. 1 was a fwb but only sex and around 22 times the wife says. 8 were ons with sex and maybe some bj foreplay involved. 1 of the last 3 was a 1 month fwb with maybe 4 or 5 sex times, she said he was fat and unattractive. 2nd of the final 3 was a ltr of 2 years off and on. He was also unattractive and was maybe 2-3 a week if lucky. The final one before me was a around a year ltr off and on with a dark tyriad homeless guy. Was more towards 4 times a week but he would blow it in 2 min lol.

My dicks had 10x more cock-per-foot in her than all of them combined. My issue isn't the past itself. But rather how she swears she wasn't a slut. The guy on the phone and his usage of "begging" seems to counter that. It was her first time sucking a dick as well. Why does she insist that she doesn't remember anything at all about it and that I'm just taking his side? Who doesn't remember the first time they touched the opposite sexs private parts, which is why i think she is lying. I know it's weak and fucking retarded to expect a woman to own her shit and admit she had an easy asd. This is just what has led me to finallu accept trp. As i realize i can't trust or believe anything even my own wife says( she really isn't my special precious unicorn after all who isn't like the rest?).