I have made the mistake of getting married young (mid 20s) because I hadn't found the red pill and believed blue pill nonsense about life. After marriage, my wife has let herself go. She is not fat, but hates working out and instead starves herself, which results in a skinny fat body and a lot of health problems. She refuses to listen to any advice, I paid for her gym membership and she went a couple of months and that was it.
During the 4 years we have been married she has worked for literally one month. She always pretends to look for jobs and then doesn' show up at the interview, or gets fired on purpose or pretends that she will "focus on being a housewife". Meanwhile, she sucks at housework and the house is a mess unless I do something.
One of the main reasons that we got married is that we both wanted 2-3 children. She has a fertility problem and can only get pregnant via IVF, which is something that we cannot afford with one income, since I am the sole bread winner. I consider the infertility a blessing now, because I don't believe that she would make a good mother, yet feel bitterness and resentment over her for not taking any action to help me.
She is a literal brainless person, her ideal life is waking up, going shopping, playing games on the computer and her phone or watch movies and then call it a day. I have offered to pay for college, but she is lazy and has no real inclination to learn anything.
Her family hates her and they played along and supported the persona she played before the marriage (we dated for 9 months prior to getting married). Btw she is a foreigner.
In September she is going to visit her mother in her country for her 60th birthday. I am not going bc I have to work 7 days a week so that we wont end up homeless.
I want to tell her that we are done and to not bother to return. I am exhausted, overworked, stressed, depressed and feel like a sucker constantly. She always says that she loves me, that she feels sorry for my hard life and 12 hour shifts every day with no future and then...goes back to her game. It seems that she only loves herself. I have separated one more time with her in the past and she turned into a sabotaging demon, destroyed stuff in the house, slandered me to common family members and friends and her mom kicked her out and stupid me felt sorry for her being homeless and took her back in. But not this time.
DAE have experience with divorcing a similar person? Any support or advice will be much appreciated.