Usually when we’re anywhere that there is alcohol the wife drinks and I drive. Yesterday I drank and the wife drove. Basically we fought (with kids in the back) because I was concerned with her shitty driving. As she got angrier with me I got angrier with her (no A&A, no fogging, no AM, just straight up sparring with one another). When she hauled off and smacked me (didn’t hurt but offended the shit out of me) I said stop the car and got out. Dark road, pretty much middle of nowhere she calls my cell and says the kids are scared get back in the car. I say not if she gonna keep being a cunt, I’ll just take an Uber. She says you’re on speakerphone we’ll talk about it later, get back in the car. I get back in the car. We make it 100ft and we’re screaming at each other. I’m screaming like the flaming faggot moron that I am. She says “you’re right, take an Uber” and she pulls over. I get out and slam the door. Call an Uber. Get home wife is trying to put kids to bed but they won’t sleep because they’re worried about me because I got out of the car in the middle of nowhere like a fucking retard. They’re happy to see me, wife goes to bed in one kids room the other sleeps with me in master bedroom. Not like wife and I wanted to sleep together anyway.
So - long story short, I know I fucked up, dropped frame, acted like a BP fag and screamed at my wife in front of my kids. Question is, now that I got up and went to work while everyone was still asleep, how do I handle this going forward? Reset and act like nothing happened? Demand an apology for wife hitting me?
39, wife 39, 2 kids. RP since Feb 2019. 5’9”, 235. Bf about 35%. Lifts bench 175x10, DL 215x7, squat 140x10, OHP 100x10, Row 115x10.
Read: MMSLP, WISNIFG, Pook, NMMNG, Rational Male year 1, MAP.
Edit/Update: Thank you to everyone who commented, no doubt I needed tough love. Despite knowing better, I texted my wife an apology. Basically said I didn’t like the way I acted and I will stop drinking. I also said neither her or our kids will never see that side of me again. Her response was “okay thanks, we’ll discuss later sorry I hit you”. I said “Forgiven, no need to discuss further unless you need to”. We’ll see what happens when I get home.
I don’t care if it was the wrong move, I realized what a shit bag I was and I had to apologize. I will also apologize to my kids tonight in person. I will stop drinking, as I mentioned to a commenter below this is not my first Wake Up Call about drinking, not by far...I have to take responsibility for this or nothing else I work on in MRP will mean a goddamn thing. I thought I was making progress, but this set me back. I will not fucking quit. I won’t look at this like I failed. Worst case scenario I’m back at Day 1 of RP having already read many of the books and having started lifting 6 months ago. Maybe I can skip the Rambo phase this time and without alcohol I can actually make progress.
Cannot thank you assholes enough for slapping the shit out of me this morning. Best day of my life.