I'm 21, I've been lurking on TheRedPill subreddits for some years and it really opened my eyes.
My mother kept me in her bubble early in my adolescence (until I turned 16) and I became so shy and unconfident.
I would spend my days on my computer playing videogames, masturbating to porn and sometimes researching about why I felt so shy/lonely/tired/lifeless.
The only thing that helped me feeling slightly better was lifting weights. I've been going to the gym since I was 14.
Now I'm 21, I go to Uni in another city and I'm more independent. (not financially) I recently started having success in kicking what looked like a heavy porn addiction. I still feel like shit and it will take time to get back to normal.
I'm still that guy though. Shy, little to no friends, quiet in social situations, lifeless, no ambition/drive. I spend most of my time on screens and it's very difficult for me to change that.
I don't know how to make friends. When I'm around others I just don't have anything to say. I don't go out often and when I do, I just can't have fun. I've never been able to make friends or fit in a group.
Where do I start?