I discovered TRP and MRP about a week ago and its been eye opening to say the least. During the summer, my wife and kids left town for a while and I had some time alone. We've had a dead bedroom for a while - we both stopped initiating about a year ago, though she has never turned me down when I initiate.
This year, I decided to check out the sugarbaby world to try some things out before I felt I got too old - maybe mid-life crisis type stuff. Met up with some young, super hot SB girls for some fun times. This was a lot of fun but ultimately wasn't fulfilling.
Anyway, I've been doing TRP type stuff before finding TRP - lifting, dressing better, better haircuts, etc. Wife was noticing and making comments about why I was doing this and joking about me cheating. A few days ago, she found the ED pills I used with my SBs in my bag and it was on. Crying, divorce threats, everything. Luckily, i found MRP a few days before this and knew the basics about how to stay in frame. Long story short, I denied everything and she ended up apologizing about digging through my stuff. That night she said she was on her period, but gave me a BJ (been a long long long time) and HJ.
My wife is attractive and isn't overweight. She has never had any red flags. I love her and want to grow old with her. Before we had kids, I used to think about having kinky sex with her all the time - we never got to that point in the bedroom, she was very vanilla. But after we had kids, I could only think of her as the mother of my children, and all those kinky sex thoughts stopped.
My questions 1) what do I do now? she's probably still a little suspicious. what kind of frame should i keep? will this incident make it more likely she cheats too? 2) After the fun times with the young SB's, sex with my wife doesn't turn me on as much. I still want to have sex with hot young 20 yo's, find myself thinking about doing this once a year to get out of my system.
I've had a decent amount of experience with women but have never been good with women. I learned about pickup just before we got married. TBH I was thinking about breaking up/delaying with my wife before our wedding so that I could go learn. Its always gnawed at me that I never got to go out and try seduction. Should i just man up, own it and be the best husband/father and forget about all this? Or should i do something like go out daygame catch and release (after things cool down at home) and see how I feel?