I’m 18 years old and for the past 1.5ish years i’ve been dedicated to improving myself and smv. This has worked, I’m getting much more female attention, iois, flirting, compliments and makeouts and shit.

I don’t think my mind has caught up to my body though, in my head i’m still a worthless incel, and I always find a way to rationalise a way out of it when a girl shows interest (i.e “she just wants attention & is a slut, not really interested” etc).

Just last night, my friends LTR brought 2 of her friends from out of town for the night because she thought one of them would like me. The friends LTR later confirmed this (she told her she thought I was hot). My subconscious must’ve rejected this instantly and I didn’t attempt to make a move or escalate the whole night, she was an inexperienced virgin just like me, so it was pretty much all on me to do something and I blew it.

I guess i’m a pretty avoidant person all round, I won’t open a social media account as i’m afraid of putting myself out there. I now know my mentality is what’s holding me back from having an awesome life, does anyone who’s dealt with this know how to resolve it? I guess my first step would be to lay off the incel forums.