I was the biggest retard ever in my past. I chased my ex who cheated on me for 6 months and did everything for her. I was overweight and looking horrible. I was easily picked on by other people because of this and I allowed it because I was a retard and a bitch. I embarrassed myself on multiple occasions in front of others by getting drunk and even doing drugs.
After I discovered TRP it changed my life. I started working out, I am no longer overweight, I started going to the gym, mediating, reading books about self improvement, started realizing my own value and feeling much better.
But at least once a day while doing something I remember my horrible beta past and can't feel anything but disgust. It just ruins my mood and makes me feel like shit and ruins my idea that I am the prize and my frame.
I am moving from my hometown city in a month for college in which I got through all of this shit during my past so maybe moving places might help? Idk