I really feel like the world I once knew was a house of cards and in the last few years it's rapidly collapsing before my own eyes. It felt good at the beginning as I was finally uncovering the deep truth about things. However, lately it's starting to develop into nihilism and hopelessness.
What I mean by that is:
-It seems like it's almost impossible to plan to get married and have a family today.
-It seems like you can't rely on democracy to fix the situation in this world that has turned upside down
-It seems like working in a company isn't so good and the money doesn't matter because they serve their only master which is profit (while masking it in with a nice logo, corporate culture, and a company mission statement)
-It seems like hypergamy is real, but then you find an example that proves it wrong, and then again you find an example that proves it's real, and the again an example that proves it wrong, until infinity.
-It seems like spinning plates is amazing, but then you realize it's an endless loop of just having sex with women while accomplishing nothing substantial in the meantime except adding a +1 to your n count
The point is that I feel lost on what to do, and where to go in life. I just want to see hope that starting an endeavor of any kind in this world will eventually be worthwhile. I don't want to do something just to earn money, which I will then spend on useless materialistic shit like cars, clothes and other things. I don't want to do stuff that feels good in the moment, but then again you are left feeling lost and without direction. I don't want to waste my time with spinning plates, or with LTR's that offer no long term value in my life. I seek for a direction in my life but I don't know where to look for it.