So quit fucking posting shit about this. I don't care if you've been 'aware'.
The classic fucking statement, "Hey I've read [one or two books] and have been redpill aware for 6 months"
Do you know what this is to our Flaired brethren? This is DEER. This is excuses. This is one more feeble attempt at not owning your shit.
When I read it, I read, "Hey guys I'm guilty of fuck-arounditis and have been taking the course work for audit only. Oh and I'm afraid of committing so I've just half-assed a for the past six months."
Life is about grades. You either get A's or you fail. There's no taking the course for Audit and seeing what you feel about it.
If you come to AskMRP and instead say, "Hey guys I'm failing and I don't know why but here's what I've done so far..." you are already starting off on the right foot. Being an integrated man starts with ownership from the first day.
The first step starts with ownership and letting go of your ego.