So I've been working on myself for a long while now. Almost 3 years since my gf broke up with me leading me to find TRP & then onto self-improvement. Gym, being TRP aware etc. Not a perfect model, but I've been aware of how the feminist narrative is mostly a lie.

Anyway, moved to University(still there, 1 year left) and became extremely passionate about creating music & DJing. Like electronic music sort of stuff from partying and going to clubs in my first year of uni.

I started my own record label (sort of, all digital) solo. I have many friends who would have loved to co-found it with me but I stuck to my guns and did everything by myself. Didn't want to have to rely on anyone - and I'm not too good at working with others when I know what I want. Basically, I had a vision for a new music scene in the student city thus starting a new label.

So essentially, I have created a social hierarchy with me at the top. I feel a bit bad as they are my friends and they could have done the same thing or we could have even founded something together. So my friends who want to be a DJ etc, all look up to me even though I try to remain as humble as possible. And honestly, being the founder of this music "scene" makes me a bit scared and stressed - but I don't let anyone know of this.

There's parties & stuff and it's all me who is getting the glory at the minute. Nevertheless giving my friends a platform for their music & DJing - promoting them as much as I do myself (but still, as the founder, I am at the top). My friends could start their own competing labels but they don't seem to be making much action (although I am prepared if they do).

I just feel a bit guilty that I started this label without my friends but I am essentially using their dreams of becoming DJs & musicians to better my own, the side effect of them also rising in success.

This normal or what? Should I not really give a fuck? Made it my passion in life to give becoming a DJ / Producer / Record label owner the best shot I can (luck plays a big part). I am doing a Comp Sci degree so will be rather employable in the future as a plan B. But this guilt sometimes makes me wanna quit this passion and just hand over to someone else.