Hi guys,

I had a oneitis last month for a month, naively fell for her. She looked like a shy sweet girl with a very sweet accent and held my hand all the time, I opened myself up to her, then the devil got out.

TLDR of history:

I saw her almost every other day for a month, weekends together, going around city, a hotel night. I paid food and tickets as I make much more than her and genuinely thought couple of hundreds bucks is nothing for me while that might be her monthly savings.Sex is okay, not the best but thought because she is shy. She texts so quickly, suddenly it stops, saying to me things this won't work, I am too strong character etc texting drops to once daily. We have a break, break up, still seeing each other at the gym, small talks or weirdly ignoring each other.Long text: in my profile: "She got under my skin. Alpha and Beta in me had a fight." (couldn't link it because post got removed!)

New Developments

She becomes about to lose her job and contacts me, I couldn't stop myself and help her by supporting and giving ideas. We plan to meet on Saturday. She learns her contract will get extended before Saturday, then doesn't even read my congrats well done msg for a day. I get pissed off and text her I am done with her disrespect, she proved me wrong about her, good luck she needs it with that attitude and block on whatsapp, remove social media etc.

Worse keep coming

After a week, now I see the next day I blocked her she shared an almost naked bikini photo on Instagram taken at home! Just learning she approached the only guy I was talking at the gym and they exchanged instagrams. Guy actually even showed me flirtation messages to me and he actually rejected her and I saw texts. There were many messages in a day often like I first met with her while last week she was responding to my texts the next day.

I don't know if she is doing this to get to me because I blocked her like that or she is just the slut my eyes didn't see.
I understand I wasn't the most smooth person when interacting like ignoring her sometimes when I see after these things happened, or blocking her on whatsapp but I made multiple moves to fix these but she didn't take up on those.

Me now in a shit position

Guys, I have a stomach ache all the time now. Don't wanna interact with anyone. Not feeling sexually towards women. Just rejected a HB7 who came to me yesterday saying she wants to come back to my place.

Now I get disgusted by seeing girls texting or seeing them on Instagram. It makes me think how promiscuous they are, how unfaithful, lying under the cover of nice girl blankets.

I am lost now and this girl is making it worse and worse. Don't know how can I expect anything more than a fuck from a woman. How can I trust? I am feeling I don't want to play this game, thinking how liar they are.

What should I do guys? Did you experience something like this? It feels shit and getting worse.

Jordon Peterson had a saying "if you have something to say, say it" and I wanna go up to this girl and say she got hurt in the past but she hurt me more than anyone herself. But that's not necessarily red pill and not masculine to say.